WOMEN'S MEDICINE
"When a woman has owned her passionate nature, allowing love to flood her heart, her thoughts grow wild and fierce and beautiful. Her jusices flow and her heart expands. She has thrown off the crutch and compromise. She has glimpsed the vast and magical realms of the Goddess within her." Marianne Williamson....
We have been following the WARRIOR WAY for far too long. . IT'S TIME NOW TO STUDY AND EXPLORE OUR WOMEN'S MEDICINE.
We have come into this earth walk at this time in humans history to heal our FEMININE SIDE OF OURSELVES.. IT MAKES NO DIFFERENCE IF WE ARE MEN OR WOMEN. But when WE AS WOMEN continue to follow the MALE MEDICINE WAY WE CAN GET LOST AND ALLOW OURSELVES TO BE TREATED IN CRUEL DISRESPECTFUL WAYS IF WE HAVE NOT BEEN TAUGHT TO KNOW AND RESPECT THE FEMALE PARTS IN OURSELVES.
The feminine is our 'Soul' intuitve side of ourself. The outer ego personality is the male side of ourself.
NOT VERY MANY MEN HAVE BEEN TAUGHT TO RESPECT THE FEMININE PRINCIPLE IN THEMSELVES YET, SO WE BECOME EASY PREY TO THEIR MALE WARRIOR WAYS.
TO BECOME A FULLY GROWN WOMAN, YOU MUST WORK ON YOUR PERSONAL GROWTH. You can do this best by knowing yourself. You must know yourself in order to become your AUTHENTIC SELF. You need to be able to heal yourself before you reclaim your role of healing and nurturing others.
When we heal our inner wounds and our wounded feminine principle and begin to hear our intuitional voice that comes from the Soul, we will no longer need to be lost, angry, seperated from love, or manipulative in order to cover our pain.. Then from our 'authentic selves' we as women can BE the healed role model we represent, leading others through our own example, instead of through our own male warrior ways. This will allow us to experience a new balance between male and female.
The more women that balance their own Female and Male aspects within themselves, the sooner we will begin to see this balance reflected outwardly in our relationships.
There are many teachings today on how to free yourself from limiting beliefs that keep you from knowing your Soul Self. Some on how to think positive and your life will change for the better, or how to go within to heal. I believe with all my heart that these messages in whatever form they come in are worth taking the time to learn and apply them to your life if you are in pain and suffering for whatever reasons.
I believe that if you applied self healing to your own issues your relationship issues could and would begin to heal and get better. If you work on healing your wounds, it would set you free to think and be a clear person who has the ability to make choices in your relationship that includes an abusive partner or choices in what kind of relationship you want to be in that would bring a more loving and peaceful result..
ANY SUFFERING IN A RELATIONSHIP comes from what is hiding inside of you. You absolutely cannot change your partner, you can only make changes in you that make you a more loving, aware, compassionate person who once healed and free of the fears and wounds locked inside of you, will begin to see your partner differently and you will either be able to make the choice necessary to leave the painful situation or love him with an unconditional, compassionate kind of love that would give him a healing environment in which he could better make a choice to begin his own healing.
If he were to choose not to do this as we all have free will, then atleast you would be clear enough yourself to decide if it would be best to move on or not. I know from experience and watching so many women in the same position that while you are still lost in your own pain and wounded self thinking, it's almost impossible to make those kind of choices so you just stay on what seems like an ENDLESS painful experience.
REMEBER, AS LONG AS YOU ARE IN PAIN AND DEPRESSED, YOUR ENERGY IS AFFECTING EVERYONE AROUND YOU. ESPECIALLY YOUR CHILDREN WHO DESERVE A HAPPIER MOM AROUND THEM. I ESPECIALLY PUT EMPHASIS ON THAT STATEMENT BECAUSE I'VE SEEN THE TERRRIBLE HEART WRENCHING EFFECTS MY WOUNDED SELF MADE ON MY NOW ADULT CHILDREN. I SO WISH I HAD BEEN ABLE TO HAVE BEEN A HEALED PERSON WHEN I WAS RAISING THEM. 'MY WOUNDED SELF WOUNDED THEM' AND NOW I SEE THEM GOING THROUGH SO MUCH OF THE SAME KINDS OF PAIN I SUFFERED THROUGH FOR SO LONG.
IF WE WANT THE WORLD TO CHANGE WE HAVE TO DO IT FIRST INSIDE OF OURSELVES, SO WE CAN BE BETTER ROLE MODELS FOR OUR CHILDREN AND OTHER LOVED ONES. BY HEALING OUR OWN WOUNDED SELF, WE DO THIS, AND OUR CHILDREN WILL GROW UP to be HAPPIER AND HEALTHIER ADULTS WHO BREAK THE CYCLES OF DISFUNCTION, and PASS THAT ON TO THEIR CHILDREN who WILL BE A PART OF CREATING MORE HEALTHIER PEOPLE FOR GENERATIONS TO COME. ONE BY ONE WE WILL BECOME A PART OF A GREATER GROUP OF PEOPLE HELPING TO CHANGE OUR WORLD.
'AND YOU WON'T HAVE TO WATCH YOUR CHILDREN SUFFER THE SAME AS YOU HAD TO. YOU CAN INSURE BETTER LIFE EXPERIENCES FOR THEM BY BREAKING THE CYCLE...'
A lot is written on this subject but I personally can't remember of very many stories that tell of someone haveing actually achieved the freedom from this cycle.
' I have' and I can't begin to put in words how wonderful it feels.
I was in pain every day of my life from the age of 2 years old. I was beaten, abandoned, and molested as a child.
My first relationship was with a cruel sick man, who beat me almost daily and almost killed me twice. After 5 and a half years I was able with the help of friends holding guns on him, to escape him and leave for good.
My next relationship was 12 years with an alcoholic. His alcoholism caused so much chaos and pain in mine and my childrens lives, I seriously don't know how I survived it.
My third relationship was with a drug addict who was able to show how much he loved me but because he couldn't conquer his drug problem it tore us apart. The pain of loving someone so much and knowing how much he loved me, who was too sick to change was just as awful as the physical beatings. It caused him to abandom me and our love, for his addiction. It caused him to lie and even steal from me.
It was lonely going through the experience with him because no matter how much we loved each other he couldn't be there for me or with me. Unfortunatly None of these men could.
I went through many years of lonelines while I was living with men too sick to be emotionally or physically present. Through it all I learned THERE WAS NOTHING I could do about the situation but find my own way out of the pain.
And that journey had to start with me working on me and my own issues.
I had no idea how many deep wounds and fears and wrong thinking was buried inside of me. The journey to healing was very painful, almost more painful than the disfunctioanl relationships I had been in but worth going through.
Now the pain is over and for the first time in many many years, I wake up in the morning really greatful. Full of love, joy and a sense of freedom I've never experienced before. I am more my Authenic self, (the self that I got glimpses of) through the many years of healing but could never quite hold onto for long.
I know where I've been and what got me to where I am today and I am so grateful that I want to give something back by sharing what I've learned along the way.
I have included a before and after picture here so if anyone is interested you can see just how much the pain of depression and abuse can take a toll on us physically as well as emotionally and mentally. When I look at these two pictures I wonder how I got to the place I was in during the first picture. The second picture looks years younger and happier even though it was 5 years later.........
Click on the link to see the pictures.......... BEFORE AND AFTER I hope you will take a look at these pictures. Pictures are worth a thousand words. See the eyes in the first picutre they say a lot.